the saddest word in the whole wide world

I could pretend that this post is the direct result of watching The Best of Me earlier today.. 

(A typical Nicholas Sparks girly tear-jerker for those playing at home)

But I'd be lying. 

And we're friends, so I'm not going to do that to you.

And honestly?

There's not much more I can say.

A L M O S T

 [awl -mohst]

adverb

1. very nearly, all but:

almost every house; almost the entire symphony; to pay almost nothing

 T H E   H O L L O W   L O N G I N G  ||  B E A U   T A P L I N

"There's something far worse
than missing a person you shared
a fraction of your life with.
And that is missing a person with
whom you did not.
For you will neither be allowed the 
pleasure of their memory, the echo of
their love, the warmth of knowing
that once upon a time you meant a damn,
you were of some importance, you will
not even be allowed the small joy
of a smile that comes with happening
upon a note they once wrote you in
the bottom of your drawer.
It is a sort of hollow longing,
a dreadful nostalgia for a thing
that never quite happened."

xx

the power of the moon

Let me just start by saying - I'm not one of those people..

You know the kind of person who asks what star sign you are; 

and then reacts to your response with an - 'oooohh.. yes, that explains XYZ'.

For the record - I'm a Scorpio; and I'm stubborn.

Are the two intrinsically linked? 

I have no idea.

I also don't know which sign you are based on your birthday;

If you're an air or water sign;

Or you which traits are associated with Capricorns.

I wish I did.

And one day I might read those astrology books collected dust on my bookshelf; 

But for now, I look to my good friend Google to provide the answers.

And so, when I heard that today - 20 March 2015 - is one of the 

M O S T   P O W E R F U L   D A Y S 

of the year, I turned to said internet-BFF, to provide me with the answers.

And because I assume you're not one of those people either, I imagine you don't understand what it means that the New Moon/Solar Eclipse is in Pisces at 29 degrees...

So, let me break it down for you -

W H A T ' S   T H E   D E A L ?

A New Moon; and

A Total Solar Eclipse; and

An Equinox

W H E N ? 

Tonight at 7.37PM AEST

S O   W H A T ?

Each of these celestial events is said to be 'kind of a big deal' on their own.

So when combined - in an Epic Trilogy of Awesome - this creates very powerful shifts for our personal and collective transformations; and marks the time for breakthroughs.

If you've been looking for a change - The universe is about to deliver.

It is a profound time for new beginnings, for letting go of what no longer serves us, and embarking on new exciting journeys.

Think of this time as an opportunity to 'reset'; to be courageous; to take action on your inspiration.

The Super Moon is known to amplify feelings and emotions.

The Total Solar Eclipse symbolises potent new beginnings.

An Equinox allows strong creative energy.

~ ~ ~

Pay attention tonight and notice if your awareness is heightened;

or you discover you're experiencing a number of 'Aha!' moments in the coming days.

Or at the very least, do me a favour - 

Go outside;

Take a deep breath in;

Look up at the sky;

Admire the beauty of the night;

And take a moment to be grateful for something.

Anything.

xx

five words is not enough

If you had to describe yourself in 5 words or less - 

What would you say??

Would you throw out some adjectives and hope they're interpreted the right way?

I N D E P E N D E N T

ie. Doesn't play well with others... (kidding....)

C R A Z Y

But not in an "I-Need-To-Be-Institutionalised kind of way"

L O Y A L

Or is this a term best left to describe the family dog?!

I N T E L L I G E N T

Just don't take me to a quiz night and expect me to know anything other than answers to the Pop Culture category

S A S S Y

aka Bitch. No not really... 

Ok.. Sort of.

Or would you try to narrow it down to one succinct sentence?

S E R I O U S L Y   F O C U S S E D;

O R   S U G A R - F I L L E D   C H I L D

Who clearly doesn't play by the rules, because that's 6 words, not 5...

And, yeah... If I'm excited, my levels of hyperactivity can be comparable to a four-year-old in a candy store.

Even if you told me there was no word limit, I don't think I could complete the task and be 100% satisfied with my answer.

It's a tough question.

And often, how we perceive ourselves, is not how we are seen by others.

But this quote by Victoria Erickson is a pretty accurate summary of me; 

Each time I read it, it becomes clearer that I could never pick 5 words to describe myself to a stranger.

The best I can come up with right now is - 

E Q U A L L Y   C O V E T S   R O U T I N E 

A N D   A D V E N T U R E

xx

the secret life of emmy

**WARNING**

Shameless plug ahead.

Miss Emmy - My fur baby; Housemate; and daily entertainment - has joined instagram.

T H E   S E C R E T   L I F E   O F   E M M Y 

After years featuring as a special guest on my personal account, Miss Emmy has launched her own. Keep up to date with her daily musings, model-esque posing, and general cuteness.

xx

we all have a story to tell

..."What do you even blog about?"

..."And what's the point in writing a blog that you don't make money from?"

..."But who would want to read what you write anyway?"

Those were the questions thrown at me by a friend's wife several weeks ago at a social gathering. 

It felt like an interrogation. And I felt like a fraud.

My immediate response?

S H I T . . . 

W H Y   D O   I   W R I T E  ? ! 

And then I found this... 

... and Flannery O'Connor had said it for me.

The truth is - My mind is a busy place.

And sometimes I need to Write It Out, just like T-Swift likes to Shake It Off.

For as long as I can remember, writing has been a huge part of my life.

Short stories; Journals; Poems; Letters; This Blog.

I find words to be therapeutic; and oftentimes, they pour out of my fingertips onto the keyboard, or scrawled across a piece of paper with the tip of a pen, and create sentences I didn't even know existed in my mind.

I can empty my emotions onto a page and suddenly the jumble of thoughts combines with my subconscious and I can find clarity spelled out before me.

I write because I made a promise to my Nan that I would one day publish a book of my stories; Because perhaps my lessons will help others (or at the very least, serve to entertain).

I write because I have a terrible memory!
So that I can read it back and marvel at my experiences; and remember with exact detail how I felt in that very moment.

Sometimes I write with a self-imposed pinky promise to never look at those words again.

I have thoughts.

And I have opinions.

And I write this blog because I want to.

xx