I have no words for this post.
Just an ache in my heart that I can't soothe - no mountain of chocolate, cups of tea, hours in the kitchen, or time spent running at the gym can distract me from the sadness I am feeling.
I do find comfort in this quote though.
"We will never be the same as we were before this loss. But are ever so much better for having someone so great to lose."
Rest in Peace Nan.